I recieved serveral comments last night and today. The comments were getting a bit long (me) and seemed to warrant a seperate place.... so I created this blog
It is a bus I put money down on in Renton... I would like to remodel it and have some adventures but am having second thoughts.... with me and just two kids... may not make sense.... I HATE giving up but it may be for the best.
I was going to tour with it with the family... I really like back in the day doing raft trips, bike trips(ragbri), it would make a great base for remodel projects or new construction builds if I needed a place to store my stuff in and live in temporily. I could use it to move my things to Boston... etc.... plus it makes me smile.
I am questioning whether to trust my gut. Up until tonight my gut said honor the deal, get the bus, follow my dreams anyways. But I have been thinking a lot about how I push things. Maybe this bus is just another example and I should let it go. My kids don't want it ... but I see what is can be rather than what it is.... my gut is almost in a place of needing to take a back seat.
I think it would be fun but really need to question everything after this last butt kickin'
My kids have not seen this one but were a bit embarassed by Arty lookiing like a partridge family bus... this one will be nicer, hip but not so ... festive.
I tend to like things that make me think - my gut feels good but my brain.... says maybe it is time to let it go....
I REALLY like Sportsmobile vans but for the cost I can travel comfortably and come back to buy an affordable car to drive on a daily basis...
http://sportsmobile.com/z-PO_calif.html
... I may not have mentioned that I have a VW euro van already...
A very good friend of mine said "Do whatever will bring the most joy to yourself and those you love. Peace!"
However.... those I love .... would love and enjoy the bus... I need to let go of that.... if it ever comes back... so be it.... check out the tan van in NM.... dings my dinger..... It may be time to let go of the bus for now.... and get something me and my kids sized... :-)
..... the hard part is my gut... really smiles with the bus.... I had a lot of hopes for it and those I love... sometimes..... things don't work out that way and my gut is not enough.... life lessons....
I woke up this morning and have been thinking about it a bit... I really like the bus and think it could be a blast.... what it needs.... is the "we"... it needs the mission or people to fill it... ANY THOUGHTS? :-)
.... if folks are curious what it would look like .... something not fany or coachy.... something more like this:
... I will but in what form... traveling alone.... in a bus this size... makes no sense.... if it is meant to be... it will come back....like I said earlier... it needs a "we"..... not just me... to fill it.... dreams can be manifested and real... but they need others to last and be full. Just like I needed an empty 6 bedroom house like a hole in the head... I "need" this bus just the same.... but with folks and vision about how it will be used..... right on! I'm in. Peace :-)
....for instance if my dream were to go to Panama January 1 and meander back.... going with folks in a bus like this makes total sense. It would provide a base and shelter as we bike/hike/stroll or meander... but the group needs to materialize and plans need to be made. The fuel budget alone could cost on the order of $4000 to $8000 dollars... split 5-10 ways... cool ... it could be doable for a potientially life changing trip..... transportation- lodging...for as long as the group decides.... check!.... only problem is with one person paying it... ouch! "We" could go country to country doing both service work and enjoying the people and sights... . or if folks wanted to do service work here in SD or US somewhere... right on... transportation lodging... done.... but the bill and effort must be shared.... dreams in a vacuum are dead ended... just fantasies....but it takes money and time... finding people that want to do something like this may be a pipe dream but... that is one reason why I am tossing out there.... if it sticks ... great!... . action and effort matter.... I will buy it if I can land on a project that lights up not just me... but others up as well.... I am done pursuing my dream alone. If it is ego based and self based I need to let it drop. If others chime in... maybe it will pick up. I am interested in a trip this Winter to Central America and am pursuing it... I would love to have others get on board and have spoken to several friends and family about this..... not just gut check ... but reality check... would anybody else join... my sense it... no. I can hope that others will but they will not unless they see something in it for them...peace
... taking the VW by myself .... is less than... I could also fly down for the money and either walk/bike/bus back... solo that makes sense... this post is an attempt to see if folks step forward... I believe God/Universe give us what we need ... not necessarily what we want... this post is and honest attempt at listeing to what is out there... I need to shut up and listen for a while.... :-)
I do appreicate your taking the time, effort, and patience to post. Thank you.
... for other folks reading this I am open to what gets done... with whom.... and when..... geneeral desire is to travel and do some service work in Central America this Winter before I come back to Brookings and make a major transition. Maybe there are college folks/students or staff that only have time between December 21 and January 17 when school starts up.... okay...maybe peope graduating (like me) want to get their yayas out before buckling down... some others may just want a change.... IF SO.... what would a trip look like? I hopefully have my kids December 23 to January 2 give or take a couple of days..... what do you think?
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